Sometime

Sometime I wondered why I even bothered?
Sometime I wondered why I'm even doing this
Sometime I wondered what's the point
Sometime I really just needed someone to talk to but can't find anyone
Sometime I really miss the old good days
Sometime I really miss you a lot
Sometime I wondered what could've been
But sometime I know things happened for a reason
Yet sometime I still want to hold onto something familiar from the past

Your my special one even if I'm not yours

It's okay to be sad
We all gained and loses something along the way
It's what make us who we are TODAY
You taught me a lesson that not all story have a happy ENDING
And now I can see the world more clearly than ever before
I'm sure someone taught you that very same lesson too...
nothing last FOREVER
but still, we clinch onto HOPE and try our best EVERYDAY
HOPING that at least FOREVER will be each and single day while we're alive

I want to take a moment to say thank you
Thank you for being there for me when I needed you
THANK YOU

And for those that have left
REST IN PEACE

Sometime I wondered what's life after death
Sometime I think about suicide

But all of the time I know it will do more harm than good

That numbness inside it's getting more and more worse as the days goes
I know I'm not the only one feeling that way
At some point we're all WALKING DEAD
until we find our purpose to carry on LIVING again
be that a person, a job or a passion
We just need to hang in there until we find it

There's a lot of stuff I'm trying to say by not speaking out loud
In the end
I miss you very much grandpa
In the end
I still want to tell someone that I still very much care about you
In the end
it's not THE END yet

Till next time

& best wishes to any & everyone who's struggling to find a new purpose in life