Be Honest, Fuck GOD, Fuck this life

so sick & tired of people taking what's mine， what i wanted the most & shitted all over it

Everything i ever wanted

One by one taken away from me

the people i cared for...

the things i earned...

the scripts i written...

taken away from me by other people

they dropped a big pile of crap all over it

Fucking hate god

Fucking hate you

Everything...Every people

taken away from me

repeatedly

like a damn broken record

i'm so tired of it

struggling to find a reason to move on

i find it hard... real hard

but obviously it wasn't that hard for them

i helped them...i cared about them

but one by one they choose others over me

repeatedly...again & again..over & over again

FUCK IT

if this is to be my life

than i don't want it

i no longer love this...this is not what i wanted

if i'm going have to make myself happy while pissing off everyone than so be it

FUCK IT

i'm walking out on this previous life

i will do whatever it takes to get what i want

no matter the cost...

because i tried doing things the right way for too damn long

maybe it's time to change...

time to admit that i'm not a good person

but i'm a honest man

because i can honestly tell myself & you that i'm a bad bad man

& i will not change for you... because what i do from now on, i do it for myself

i will never ever do things for you all...no more...

help myself before others...